Certified party girl

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 cringe note on phone 

have been a lil off lately stress & identity crisis type shit and then feeling somehow a bit embarrassed or regretful about being a party girl sm and the fact that I spent sm of my lyf in the club and the fact that I am obsessed with it like its the only thing I truly understand, write about and think about

Haha sound so crazy to spell that out but music and club culture is truly on my mind A LOT


have been comparing myself to professional ppl (what is that lol) and been like what if I hadn’t spent sm time as a transatlantic party girl


even though I have always gone out with intention (doing it without will literally make me depressed) I have been keeping myself on a tight leach the last couple of year cus I need sleep to cope with life…. Like a trip to berghain a couple times a year and that’s it…. but when eris drew and octo come to my city I get out of my “going out to dance and Kiki and go to sleep before 3” hometown type shit I have been on and I go to the RAVE. And here we are…. I can’t believe it…. all my self doubts are gone, there is a reason this spectacle is on my mind. Sincerely MUSIC IS THE ANSWER TRULY and I need the motherbeat to pound for me to go trough life. nothing serves lessons like a club and if ur not too faded this place will teach you a thing or two about life and yourself that everyone should experience….. sound so mondane to write but honestly its true. the practice is how to make it come to life outside of the club and that’s something I have practiced ever since is started going out and it has shaped me in a way I am proud so proud of. But when rarely I go out and sleep more, I miss these realizations and recalibrations that the club will give


Raving done right will bring you back to zero and out of ur head and right back on your path! I am so grateful for the hours spent in the club the fact that it has been my school of life. The wisest ppl I have met in my life I met at the rave. Truly. Thank you to me for being a party girl thank you to ppl throwing raves and thank you for the music omg


xoxo proud and certified party girl


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